First Ramblings

I can't tell you how many times I have attempted to start a blog. I start them for a purpose and then I end up forgetting about them. Or not feeling like I have the writing ability to keep up with all those amazing bloggers out there.

But that all being said...I am trying again!

I will make grammar mistakes. I will make spelling mistakes. I might ramble. I might not be funny. But I am me. I am slowly discovering and loving myself more and more. I guess its this getting older thing. I am becoming or at least trying to be happier with my own skin.

I believe most of this blog will be about my weight ups and downs. I would love to say it will be about my weight loss, but my track record in that field isn't so good. I tend to get on board for a month or two. Lose some weight.....and then slowly fall off the wagon. And gain it back.

I am very good at the research end of things. I can read up on Paleo or the latest exercise. How to lift weights...but then when it comes to application..I wuss out! I would love to have some extra cash flow where I could pay for a trainer. But that obviously isn't happening in my world these days :(

Marriage might be another topic. I am officially engaged right now. When will the marriage happen....sometimes I think never. We can't afford a wedding. And honestly I don't think J is even really interested. Am I okay with that? Yes and no. Yes because I never even thought I would get married to him in the first place. Can't teach an old dog new tricks. No because I would love to be married to him....quite the conundrum.

Kids... They aren't mine and sometimes that is even worse. I tend to play this line with them. Something I struggle with daily. I love them to bits and appreciate their quirks, but gosh darn it would they just clean up some more. Are boys always so gross? Actually yes they are...I remember my brother!

Basically everyday life....but with a dose of living, laughing and loving. Its my main mantra in life. I try to keep a smile and a happy thought to make the daily struggle that much more easier. It is not an easy task, but how else can you appreciate the sunrise/sunset or the mountains around you!